The other day I stared at the computer screen reading her words, “Archie and I had to do what no parent should ever have to do. We made final arrangements for Silas and chose a burial spot.” And my heart ached. As tears fell and fell, I thought about the day we went to identify our daughter before her cremation. It is the most gut-wrenching, heart-aching, cannot-believe-this-is-actually-happening experience one could go through.
Jessica and I went to the same church together growing up. If you had told me as giggly little girls who thought boys had cooties that 25 years later we’d both be where we are today, I would have shook my head in Peter Pan defiance and said, “I don’t want to grow up!” Or, at least can we get a pause button for awhile?
Jessica’s son Silas has been battling a very aggressive form of liver cancer and is now getting ready to meet Jesus. Their family signed Hospice Papers just the other day and are now taking in every moment, every giggle, every word, and every breath Silas has, treasuring each one as a gift. They do not know when the moment will come when Silas will draw his last breath here on Earth and receive his new body in Heaven. All they know is it will be soon.
What is both precious and heart-wrenching, is to read about how he is not afraid to die, he is just excited to meet Jesus face to face. On the one hand, I have no idea how you process your child saying that to you, and yet I wish we could all see death like that. In his sweet little mind he fully understands, as only a child can, the difficult to grasp words of Paul, “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” Phil 1:21.
A few days ago Silas asked his mama to tell people to paint their nails gold in support of people who are fighting childhood cancer. And then Silas’ Facebook Page began to BLOW UP with all shades of Gold. A day later Jessica posted this, “Thank you everyone for painting your nails gold! I have to tell you something though. I told Silas how many people were painting their nails gold for him and he said “NO not for me! They have to paint their nails gold for the other kids with childhood cancer, because I’m not going to have cancer soon when I get my new body!”
Thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of people are painting their nails gold right now in support of Childhood Cancer, all because a sweet little boy who is about to meet Jesus is thinking of others and their battle with Childhood Cancer. Silas, we have been praying for you for about a year now and are so inspired by your sweet child-like faith, your precious innocence, and your heart for Jesus.
If you have a few minutes today, please go over to Praying For Silas on Facebook. Check out his journey, the faith of his family, and please pray God will give them the peace only HE can provide.